Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Vegas Baby...Yeah!


Vegas was incredibly overstimulating. I think if I lived there I might develope seizures. Serious lights, sound, smoke, heat, food, money, sin.....and every other little thing. With that said....Awesome.

We had soooo much fun. T and I had never been there. Can say we never really wanted to go there. But we had the opportunity to go with two of our most fabulous friends S & B, and we had a ball. S got us a super deal with Allegiance Air and Ceasar's Palace. And, what better time to go to Vegas for the first time, but your 41st Birthday! That's right, old man time has once again placed another heavy year on my tired shoulders. We did a bit of everything. We drank (not much, but some :)), we ate, we gambled (for 20 minutes!), we ate some more, we shopped, and we walked and walked and walked and walked. We walked until our blisters had blisters. We walked until we very nearly dropped. And, we saw some shows. Ah, the shows. The best we saw was The Beatles Love - Cirque Du Soleil. S got us seats in row 4. Had to be the best seats in the house. It was soooooo astonishingly good that I was seriously near tears.

So I am older, yes. Wiser, perhaps. And, I have been to Vegas!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Wallowing?.....perhaps a little.


Last week was tough. I had a day of tortuous red-eyed, self pitying...wallowing. Lots of why mes. But, past that. If you know me then you know that I am by description, pessimistic. The classic glass half empty gal. Actually mostly glass empty gal. I used to refer to myself as an idealist, but really, honestly, pessimistic fits.

Now last week, I actually thought we would pass Court without a problem. I experienced a momentary lapse of pessimism and was positive we would pass. WHAM. Guess that is what you get when you deviate from your true self.

Honestly, pessimism has been given a bad rap. I say that because when you expect the worst then you are pleasantly surprised when things go your way. Perhaps I have never felt worthy. Sorta, why would things go MY way. Why do I deserve it. Ya know what I mean? I really tried positive thinking. I gave it a shot. But let me tell you, when you expect something to happen and it doesn't, it really, really sucks!

For now, and really everyday of my life, my fate is in God's hands. Ultimately, he is in control of my destiny. So, I give it all up to him. It is his. I am going on faith and trusting this will all work out.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Devastated!

Today was our Court date in Ethiopia. We did not pass Court. We are heartbroken. Our agency is bewildered. At the moment there are no answers. Only monumental questions. Normally, a family would be assigned a new Court date and the issue would be resolved before the Court appearance. With us it is different. Seems our little man came from an orphanage that recently had sanctions placed upon them. For what I don't know. But since their license is currently not approved, then all the paperwork for our little man will no longer be accepted by the Court. Nobody knows what to do. This has apparently never happened before. What does this mean for us? What does this mean for our little man? Our hearts are breaking. We are devastated.